So frustrating

I am stuck at 193 for what seems like forever. That is the magic number, what I was the morning after Joseph was born. And I got down to it, after gaining 15 pounds AFTER he was born, which is nice and all, but I cannot believe I have not gone below it yet. He is 4 1/2 months old, and I have been working out and starving myself since he was 6 weeks old. This stinks.

I just keep telling myself to stay with the routine, and some day, I will wake up and be my proper weight. But that's 50 pounds away. That's as much as Peter weighs, I think. That's horrifying.

So as of today, I am:

193.2 pounds

34 waist

43 hips

26 thigh