Here we go again

There is much to say in this first post.

Rereading my posts from Joseph was frightening.  I can't believe I am in the exact same situation again, almost down to the pound.  I just hope I can avoid the same trajectory as before, because if I do not lose weight this time, I will really be in despair.

Shortly after Anna was born, I was 193, after getting up to about 201 at the end of the pregnancy.  The engorgement added a lot of water weight:

5/12/12
197.8
37 chest
46 hips
35 waist
27 thigh
13 arm

When she was two weeks old, things looked better:

5/18/12
192.8
36 chest
45 hips
34 waist
27 thigh
12.5 arm

But I got overconfident.  As I always do, I started gaining weight again, even though I was being careful about what I ate:

5/25/12
194
36 chest
45 hips
34 waist
27 thigh
12.5 arm

I hovered right around that weight for a bit:

6/1/12
193

But then, at my 6 week postpartum, I was up, bigtime:
198 at Tepeyac

And a week later, at the endocrinologist, I was up again:
201 at Rogacz

Unbelievable.

A couple days ago, I did not weight myself, but I took my measurements, and they were not pretty:

6/23/12
36 chest
45 hips
34 waist
27 thigh

In other words, they are the same as they have been.

I cannot live like this.  I do not want to look like this.  I cannot even fit into my postpartum wardrobe.  I want to be strong and healthy so I can have more children.  I want to be beautiful for my dear husband, who is in the best shape of his life.  I know what I need to do, and I know how to do it.  I just need to DO IT.

This morning, I did about half and hour on the elliptical, an easy program, and I felt great.  I have eaten healthily all day.  I can only control what I can control.  I will continue to build up my exercise program.  I will continue to eat well.  I will not give up.  Even if this takes forever, even if progress is slow or nonexistent for a time, I will keep going.  I owe it to myself, to any future babies, to my husband.

Next post, I will put down my measurements from when Babu was deployed.  I started off even worse than I am now, and I managed to lose the weight without Metformin.  I know I am older now, but I am also wiser and more mature.  I can do what needs to be done.