The worst pictures

Iraq

early february: 49 hips, 38 waist, 29 thigh
april 25: 45 hips, 34 waist, 28 thigh
may 16: 43 hips, 32 waist, 26 thigh
june 7: 40 hips, 31 waist, 25 thigh
july 24: 37 hips, 30 waist, 25 thigh


these are my measurements from when Babu was in Iraq.


and i just found Mary's babybook.  i was 140 when i got pregnant, 172 when she was born.  i started this pregnancy at 176, and i'm still 197 at 2 months PP.


i need to lose between 50-60 pounds, about 10 inches off my hips, 8 inches off my waist.  i am on the edge of truly obese.  i am about to not fit into regular sizes.  i need a sense of urgency.


i need to focus on what i am choosing, not on what i am denying.

One step forward, two steps way way back

Before we left for NY, I started using MyFitnessPal and exercising, and when we were there, I was good at first, but then fell back into bad patterns, and I haven't yet gotten back into the saddle.  I am so disappointed in myself, there are no words.  I am going to look so awful in our family pictures at the beach.

I am too depressed to get on the scale, but I took a couple of measurements this morning, and I am still the same huge creature I have been since Anna was born, which is not surprising, since I have not been eating properly or exercising:

45 hips
34 waist
27 thigh